The reflections of the great scholar and Christian apologist on the death of his wife. In April 1956, C. S. Lewis, a confirmed bachelor, married Joy Davidman, an American poet with two small children. After four brief, intensely happy years, Lewis found himself alone again, and inconsolable. To defend himself against the loss of God, Lewis wrote this journal, an eloquent statement of rediscovered faith. In it he freely confesses his doubts, his rage, and his awareness of human frailty. In it he finds again the way back to life.  “Its honest dissection is the negation of self-pity… drawing firmly back from each conventional posture of the mourner, he invites not sympathy but co-operation in his attempt to argue out a grief.” – The Times Literary Supplement (Takakansi- ja esittelyteksti)